An extremely lazy person!

You can just tell how lazy I am by my (non) posts. Would you believe me if I told you that for a while I even forgot about this blog? This shouldn't be funny, but I'm laughing anyway.

I'm back here trying to write something worth reading. If I'm being honest, I have to say this won't be any good because I suck at writing. Well, that's a lie, because I'm kinda good at writing short complex-themed essays. Or I was back in high school. It's been a few months since I graduated and got my bachelor's degree (I need to add a P.S. here because I've made this draft back in 2020 before covid got spread all around the world, so now it's been more than two years since I got my degree). Can you believe it!? Because I'm not sure I can. I still feel like I'm that little kid that loved playing in the dirt and eating some of it along the way. But, I did. After 16 years of school, I'm finally done. And what a good feeling that is.

That's where my accomplishments end though. I graduated and then became this lazy person (I mean, I was always lazy, but at least I had stuff to do while I was in school). And now I'm a jobless, unmotivated person who wants to do something but has yet to figure out what that something is. I'm hoping that I'll get a job soon, but I'm also a bit scared because this would be my first real job. Yes, I'm that girl that hasn't worked a day in her life, the girl that lived off of allowances from parents and the monthly stipend I used to have while I was still in school. (It's actually quite sad how I don't need to update any of this because nothing has changed. Well, I kinda have a volunteering job right now, but that's about to end soon. I could literally cry now because it's been two years and I'm so far behind the start line.)

Real life got to me. I wanna say that I was never the person who didn't understand the (I honestly have no idea what I was about to write here and why I stopped before finishing my thoughts but whatever.)

This is where the updated draft ends and where I write something new that I'm actually thinking about at this moment. 

Well, something funny happened tonight. Actually, it may not be at all funny to anyone beside me but do I care? Not even a slightest bit. I found this website where you can fill a form and if they like what you write they'll contact you about the job. Well, now I'm contemplating about publishing this post after I write it or save it to the drafts again because I gave them the link to this blog. Anyways, one of the questions was to write something about yourself. So, what did I do? I went and wrote a whole book about myself, and half of it wasn't even good. You know how you're supposed to say the best things about yourself in those forms to really sell it? Well, I went and wrote them negative things about myself. They need to be warned on time. All jokes aside now, I was really honest there though. I'm mostly always honest in those forms when talking about myself, because how can I go and lie to them and then they hire me based on that??? That's a big no from me. I tried to be as funny as possible, so now I'm just hoping that whoever gets to read that (if anyone does) that they laugh too. I like honesty and especially in these situations because I don't want to oversell myself only to disappoint anyone and everyone. I really was laughing while writing that stuff and after sending it I laughed even harder. I don't know, I just love laughing. And having a reason to laugh about is a great thing. Whoever's reading this, if you haven't laughed today then do it now. Go watch some funny videos or read some jokes or maybe watch a great comedy and just let it all out. Laughing is healthy. It soothes me sometimes. Am I weird for this? I think this might be my most honest blog post so far. I was honest in my previous posts too, but in this one I kinda opened my soul to you. Gave you a glimpse of it and what's it like to be me. 

I'm honestly hoping that anyone who opened this post to read it didn't stop at the beginning and is now here. Hi to whoever you are. Know that I love you for reading this all the way through. I hope you all have a great day/night. 

Til' next time. Xoxo, honest girl.

Homemade face mask

Hey people!

It's been like half a year since I've posted my first post. I can't even tell you why I haven't posted the second sooner. I think I just forgot about it. I've been spending my time lazying around (and studying for my exams). So, I'm just gonna post something today.

I've decided to write about a DIY face/body mask that you can make at home. I'm pretty sure almost everyone has theese ingredients at home, and if not they're very cheap, so you're gonna save money with this mask.

This last spring I used to spend my nights researching which edible/drinkable products have the best benefits for our skin. Honestly, I think I spent hours just reading everything, amazed with all the stuff people do to clean their face properly. So, I came up with a mask of my own (or not, there are probably people who are already making it).

The mask consists of yogurt, powdered chocolate, cocoa, coffee grounds and turmeric. Lately, I've started adding cinnamon every couple of days. And I make this mask every day. Leave it on for like 20 mins and then wash it off. And, as you may already know, turmeric may leave yellowish stains on your skin, but don't be scared. It's completely washable. You can either wash your face with your favourite face wash or cleanser or just leave it as it is. But honestly, it all depends how much turmeric you add and how long you keep the mask on your face before washing it.

I've written this post and saved it as a draft a long time ago and now I have to say that I've long since stopped making this mask. Now I don't really use any, or if I do I only use this one mask that I'm someday gonna write about.

But I have to tell you guys that you really have to take care of your skin if you want it to be beautiful and shiny. It's gonna take a long time for your skin to clear up from bumps and pimples, and maybe it won't ever be completely clean but don't let it stop you from caring about it. It took me a very long time to feel comfortable with how my skin looks and to stop caring whether I have any make-up on or not. Just let your skin rest. Let it be natural. Everyone is beautiful in their own way. And remember that famous saying: "Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder."

How are you?

Hello my dear people.

Here I am with my excuses why I haven't posted anything in a while, but I'm just not motivated enough to write anything. And honestly, I can't write when I want, but when the inspiration strikes. And, let me tell you now, it does not strike me very often.

As you can see from the title, this blog post isn't a review of anything at all. It's just me coming here asking all of you how you are. How do you feel? Are you exhausted from school, working, lazying around (like me)? Are you happy or sad? Think a bit about your emotions. Turn on some music. And if you're home alone, turn the volume on the max and have that concert, dancing around the room and jumping around. Yell out lyrics so even your neigbours can hear you. Honestly, I can say this is one of my favourite activities to do when I'm home alone.

i'm here to tell you that lazying around can be good too. For example, last night I had this plan to write my CV and motivational letter, that I plan to send out to several people/companies, because I'm unemployed, obviously. But then, once it got dark outside I was in this good mood, and I just wanted to watch a movie. And what better movie to watch than a cute young adult romance, aka To All The Boys: Ps. I Still Love You. I'm not gonna write anything about the movie here, other that I was in the mood to watch it. I don't want this post to turn into a review. So, I'm telling you, the person reading this, whoever you may be, go and relax. Your mind and body will appreciate it. I'm just gonna leave you the link to the song from the movie here (MARINA - About love), so go and listen to it even if you don't want to watch the movie.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!! Make this day about yourselves and not about anyone else. You deserve it It doesn't matter if you're in a relationship or single, make this day just about you and just LOVE YOURSELF. Today and every day.

My skincare routine

Hello guys!

Yes, I know I haven't posted anything for a while, but now I'm gonna award you with my whole skincare routine. In this post I'm just going to post pictures of products I use daily or weekly, with little descriptions, like what's their function and when I use them in my routine. Later on, I will post reviews of every product individually. I also have to mention that I've been using these products for a long time, and also there are several new products that you'll see. So, let's begin this.

These are all the products that use in my morning or night routine. Some of these are empty, and I have yet to buy new ones. I'll start with cleansers, peelings, masks, then toner, creams and the oil.

The very first product that I start with my morning and night routines is this Balea cleansing foam. It's very light, with really good ingredients. It's alcohol free as well. It cleans my face really well, and it even cleans the make up, when I'm wearing it.

Once upon a time, I used this Balea wash cream in my night routine, but ever since I started usin ziaja cleansing gels, I stopped washing my face with this cream. It's almost empty, too, and I didn't want to buy a new one, so I just started using the ziaja gels and fell in love with them, so I kinda just discarded this wash cream. 

This is ziaja cleansing gel, that is made for acne prone and oily skin. I use this one as a second step in my routine when I'm wearing make up. I use this one with an ebelin brush, and I only use it to remove any excess dirt that is left of make up.

I've been using this ziaja cleansing gel for like a month now, and I'm in love. I use it as a second step in my night routine. And I often leave it on my face for several minutes while I brush my teeth, and then I wash it off.

I also bought this ziaja peeling paste last month and I have to say that it hasn't disappointed me. I used to clean my face with this one twice a week, but now I have another peeling that I use, so I switch them sometimes. It all depends on my mood.

This is the second peeling that I mentioned above, and this is an enzyme peeling. It's also from ziaja. (If you didn't notice by now, I really like ziaja skincare products.) This peeling is amazing, even better than the green one from the picture above. And when I use this peeling, I leave it on my face like 5-10 minutes, and then I wash it off.

This is a Farmasi mask, and its key ingredients are tea tree oil and white clay. I usually use this mask when I've picked my face, and it soothes it a bit after. Sometimes, I'll use it my morning routine and sometimes it's a part of the night routine.

I use this ziaja manuka tree purifying toner in my night and morning routine, after washing my face, and before applying all the other products.

I use this antioxidation cream in my morning routine, after washing my face and applying toner. It contains SPF 10 low protection.

This ziaja moisturising cream I use as a night cream, even tho it says day cream on the packaging. I don't really care. It's been a good night cream for my face so far and I like it very much. The skin is so smooth after using this cream.

This is a Balea sos.gel, that I use for my pimples. It's part of my night routine. I aplly this gel after cleaning my face with cleansers and spritzing toner, After this gel, I apply the ziaja goat's milk day cream, that I mentioned above.

This iis an oil called gold oil, and it's made of different oils that are good for the skin. This little bottle is empty now, and I have to order a new one, i just can't make myself to do it. But, this was my fifth bottle, I think. It's really good. I used to use it in both morning and night routine, but I've recently noticed that when I apply it in the morning after toner, it makes my pimples pop out, when the toner's alreadly like calmed them, if you understand me. So, I then started using it only in the night toutine, and I use it as the last step.

Little recap of my morning and night routines.

Morning routine: Balea cleansing foam, ziaja manuka tree toner and ziaja antioxidation day cream.

Night routine: Balea cleansing foam, ziaja cleansing gel, ziaja manuka tree toner, Balea sos-gel, ziaja goat's milk day cream and the gold oil.

Removing make up: Balea cleansing foam, ziaja cleansing gel for acne prone and oily skin or ziaja manuka tree cleansing gel with a brush.

This is an ebelin brush that I use in my skincare routine. It's available to buy in DM stores. 

These are masks that I currently have in my skincare collection. I've only ever used like three of these, and the others I bought on a whim. Actually, ziaja ones I bought because my friend loves them and she has similar skin as mine. 

This is a sheet mask, and I've only used it once back in August. My face was smooth after it, but it's a bit too pricey to buy often. And this one I got as a gift recently, and have yet to use it.

These are the ziaja masks that I mentioned my friend loves. I only used the one in the middle, soothing face mask, so far, and I'm in love. The rose butter and antioxidation masks I'll use maybe next week, but as antioxidantion cream is good for my skin, I don't have bad expectations from the mask. And the rose butter mask, I just hopet new pimples won't come out after using it.

These two masks I bought on a whim, and have yet to use them. I bought them like two months ago, and to be honest, I'm a bit scared to put them on my face, as there are no reviews of any of these on the internet.

I also bougt these on a whim, together with the two masks above. I bought them without checking the ingredients, and without knowing there are no reviews anywhere on the internet. It says they are limited editions. And the key ingredients are the ones that are good for my skin, but I'm still not sure. Will update you once I have enough courage to use them. 

So, this little long post is more pictures than words, but I promise you will get reviews of every product that I mentioned above, sometimes in the future. I just wanted to show you what I use in my skincare routine. You can research the products a bit, check if they would be good for your skincare routine. I'll post the reviews once I write them. Bye, for now. 

My favourite Turkish soap operas

Merhaba herkese!

Since I'm a huge lover of Turkish dizis aka TV series I've decided to dedicate this post to them. I apologise in advance for not using proper Turkish letters, but I don't have them on my laptop keyboard, so forgive me.

The first dizi I've watched in my life was Dikkat Bebek Var. Anyone remembers baby Baris and his dog? It was filmed in early 2000s and I think I've watched when I was in third or fourth grade,some time around year 2006. Can you imagine how in love I was with that baby!? I even wanted to name my son after him. So, since this was the first dizi that lured me in this world of Turkish soap operas, I'll have to say it holds a dear place in my heart. To be honest, I don't remember much about his show but I can't find it anywhere on the Internet to rewatch it. I remember that the parents divorced and then got married again and Baris the baby was also present at the wedding, I remember the adventures of Baris and the dog. I remember the nanny, who I think was a thief or something. Don't blame me if I remember it wrong. I wish that this dizi existed somewhere on the Internet, like whole episodes, so I could watch it on repeat. If someone knows anything about this, please let me know, I'd be forever grateful.

The second dizi I watched was Ezel. I remember how all the girls in my school were head over heals in love with Ezel. I remember crying when Omer was in jail, and there was this scene where a guard or the director was beating him with a sack full of oranges. I remember feeling sorry for him. Honestly, I was so happy with him later for wanting the revenge. But despite everything I rooted for him and Eysan to end up together. If you love romance-crime-mystery-dramas then this is the one for you.

Honestly, this started looking as a timeline of all the good soap operas I've watched since around 2006. Mind you, after Dikkat Bebek Var I didn't watch another dizi for several years. Mostly, because I didn't have those good channels that used to buy them at the time. So I had to wait until the channels we had decided to buy the rights for showing it for their audience.

So, the next soap opera I watched was Ask ve Ceza. And it also happens to be one of my favourites. I remember that time so good. Ezel was on one channel and an hour later Ask ve Ceza would start on another channel. I remember the first time I saw Savas, and I immediately dropped Ezel. I would tell my Mom "hey, look it's your son-in-law" despite him being like 30 years older than me. Nothing mattered at the time. One scene that will forever be my favourite scene of all Turkish shows was when Savas learned the truth about his son and then him going to Bodrum to see him knowing the whole truth now. I even watched it on YouTube before it was shown on the TV. And to this day, I still love that scene, and often find myself searching for that episode to see the scene again and again.

And after Ask ve Ceza is the season when I started watching the dizis on the Internet. I simply couldn't wait for someone to buy the rights when there were people online who would post the subtitled episodes. And that was when I fell in love with Asi. Honestly, I gotta admit I've seen one episode like around the time when Ask ve Ceza was on TV, and I've seen that episode when I was at my aunt's because she had that channel. It was the hospital scene of Demir and Asya, after he was released. Whoever's seen this dizi will know what I'm talking about. Then I got home and spent hours searching for it online with subtitles in my mother language. It was hard, I admit. I didn't even use the Internet for that kind of stuff before so I didn't even know where to look. And imagine my luck when I found it on one website. I stayed up until 3am like every night watching it. That was also the time when I started staying up late and going to sleep at almost dawn. I was already 15 by that time, so it was kinda alright. And I was on my summer break, which was awesome. But get this. As soon as school year started one of the channels we had decided to buy rights for Asi. And of course I watched it again on TV. Who could blame me!! After Savas, of course I'd love Demir as well. After all, it was the same actor who played both characters.

Adini Feriha Koydum is the show that I kinda learned about on the go. One school night my parents let me spend the night at my best friend's, and the neighbour girl came over that night and said "hey, can you change it to that channel, Emir is about to start". So of course my friend changed the channel and we watched the episode together. The next day I went home. And that night I took the remote and told my parents we're watching a dizi that I've seen last night at my friend's house. And so the obsession began. I even got my parents obsessed with it, and I loved it. By the way, the scene that hooked me in was the one when Emir was in hospital after he and the blonde girl had an accident, and Feriha came to visit him. And I remember how sad I was after it ended abruptly. 

So, after all these soap operas from 2000s, now it's time to write about some newer dizis that I love. One dizi that I'm in love with (this is a strong word since I only love the first half of the dizi) is Siyah Beyaz Ask. I was in love with AsFer and the chemistry Ibrahim and Birce had. But I stopped watching it some time after the 20th episode. It just stopped having the charm it had before. But I can't deny loving that first half of the dizi. Those episodes were awesome and I plan on rewatching them.

Another newer dizi that I'm absolutely fascinated with is Hayat Sarkisi. Have you seen Kerim's curles? I feel like I'm repeating myself non-stop with saying this but I can't help it: I'm in love. Seriously, why are 90% of Turkish actors hot as hell!? You can't not fall in love with them. And even if they're bastards in the dizi you still fall in love, because no one can resist their looks. I heard about Hayat Sarkisi when it first began airing in Turkey but I didn't start watching it until like 18th or 19th episode. Don't ask me why, because I have no idea. But one I caught up, I was so hooked I felt sorry for myself for not waiting fall and the start of second season. And the second season was also amazing. The way they showed us HulKer love is simply magnificent. And those times when they pulled pranks on each others were awesome. If you haven't seen this one yet but love cute romantic comedies with some family drama, then this one is for you. 

And we've come to my currently favourite dizi, Elimi Birakma. Is there someone who doesn't love AzCen and why? I think it sgould be a serious crime if you're not watching this dizi. I mean, how can you resist the Cenk Celen charm!? Is that even possible? I'm so in love with Alp Navruz, that I don't know what I'd do if I'r've never come upon him. I remember seeing him in Ask Laftan Anlamaz and thinking he's cute but I didn't pay him much attention there because, hello Burak Deniz! But I noticed him in fazilet Hanim and Kizlari. And roothed for him, of course. Well, until a certain point. At one time I wanted him to give up on his love and for the writers to get him a new girl who would love him the way he deserved, but it didn't happen. And I didn't like Sinan's ending either. But whatever, now ANFC's getting that well deserved justice with Cenk Celen who is just perfect. Do I even have to talk about Alp's chemistry with Alina Boz!? These two are the definition of a perfect dizi couple, both in dizi and in real life. Can you  honestly deny that you don't ship Alpina even a little bit?! But all this aside, this dizi is just awesome in every meaning of that word. I love how they portray the family values, and relationships in general. Yes, there are some characters that are acting like they're the God, but they'll get what they deserve in the end.

Well, I hope you like this post. Honestly, I didn't put much thoughts into it. I was thinking about what I could write about next and a switch turned on and I was like, okay I love Turkish soap operas so why not write about them for a change?! And here it is. These are the dizis that I will always love and dizis that I could always watch no matter how many times I've watched them already. Who cares about that anyway!? I hope you've seen one of these soap operaas, and if not, then what are you waiting for!? Go and Google them, make some popcorn, press the play button and just sit and enjoy it.

Forever and All the Afters by K. I. Lynn

Hola amigos!

As you can see from the title, this post is going to be a review of the book Forever and All the afters by K. I. Lynn.

This book's male character is probably the only reason why I'd recommend this book. I'm in love with Pike. He was so empathic, affectionate, understanding. And he was so in love with the heroine. I loved how he tried convincing her what she was doing is wrong and later being by her side, protecting her from evil. But honestly, I want to focus this review on Aubrey. I don't really like how the author portrayed her like in the first half of this book. She was shown as weak, seeking love no matter the consequences. I honestly wanted her to have a backbone since the first chapter of this book, but that's not the case. I don't think she'd have the courage to do what she did later in the book had the evil not shown. She's still be insecure, wanting to please. I felt like she'd pay whatever price, no matter the cost, just to please the evil. (Note: evil is a person, if you didn't figure it already by now.) This is a quote from the book that I thought described her perfectly until Pike opened her eyes:

"Scratch the surface, and there was nothing of substance holding us together but the strings attached to me that he was pulling. Strings he sewed into my mind without me even noticing. A puppet for him to play with and manipulate into what he wanted."

Honestly, I think there are many people out there who are led by their insecurities and being manipulated easily by using those same insecurities. I don't know the feeling, and I hope to never learn it. What I think of this book is that it gives us an insight into the world of those whose lives are led by their insecurities and how (if) they overcome those. I hope everyone eventually finds a way to overcome everything. But I also know that there are people imprisoned in their own bodies and minds, people who are manipulated by their "significant" others. I would recommend this book to everyone, just so they can see what being manipulated means and what it actually is. That under many so called compliments are hundreds of insults. I want you to read this book to see those manipulations and to think how that happens in real life. Be careful around others, think about things you say, because sometimes even little things said like a joke can hurt more that the biggest insult ever. And I want you to read it to see that everyone has people around them that will support them unconditionally and that all of us can stand up for ourselves.

"I love you. From now until forever, I love you."
His eyes shine, and he drops his forehead down against mine. "My love has no conditions. There are no strings. I love you uncoditionally."

Author's words about this book: "I wanted to explore how the loss of a first love can affect a person years later. How insecurities can grow and warp a person's internal view of themselves. And how there are people who will take advantage of those that have been beaten down, whether by their own doing or an outside factor."

Synopsis:
"He promised me forever.

Then he boarded a plane for a college a thousand miles away and never returned. A decade later there’s a ring on my finger with a new promise from a new love.

Just as my life falls into place, pretty as the pages of a magazine, my world is knocked over. The moment he touches me everything around me begins to crack, exposing all the lies I’ve told myself.

Every glance reminds me. Every touch ignites.

Things aren’t how they used to be.

Love isn’t easy."

P. S. Here's the link to my goodreads account.

My trip to Munich

Hallo, Leute!

I feel like I always start my posts with "sorry, i haven't written in a while..." but seriously, I planned to post something earlier but I just wasn't in the mood for writing.  I had no idea what to write about in this post and, suddenly, I got the idea to write about my experience in Munich.

When I first got there I felt like I was in this huge city, which in reality is the truth. My whole life I've lived in villages and small towns. I only go to the city when I have classes or just for shopping, which doesn't happen very often. So, coming to Munich was such a new experience that i loved very much. to be honest, I almost started crying when I had to leave. It was probably because I left earlier than I was supposed to, but I didn't feel like I had any other choice other than to pack my bags and go home to my small town on the other half of the continent.

 

I wanted to tell you how beautiful that city truly is. It's magnificent. I fell in love with it. Well, I have to admit it wasn't really love on the first sight but some time while I was there, a love was born. Now I'm just sitting at home, dreaming about going back there one day.

I didn't see much while I was there, but the few things I got to see were quite enough for me to fall in love with it. My cousin happened to be there at the same time I was, so he took me out sight seeing once. And what a night it was. We went to the center of Munich, Marienplatz. It was so beautiful and so amazing. We just walked around for like two hours. Spent a lot of that time watching talented people perform. We got to see a magician doing some tricks, and in the end he performed a trick in which he literally choked himself with a rope but then, suddently, while he was tightening it around his neck it appeared in someone else's hands. We also saw a boy who was doing some tricks with his dog. But that did not go well as the dog was more amazed with the public watching them than fulfilling the expectations. I laughed a bit there. The best part were the break dancers. Three guys played music on their phones and danced around. And some kids joined them and the guys taught those kids some tricks as well. It was truly amazing. I'm gonna post a video for you guys, too.

This trip, as I like calling it, will forever be remembered as my first real trip ever.